Even when we can’t see it yet, there’s a light ahead…
Yes I could say that I have the right to complain. After all who wants to be stuck in a place they don’t want to be in, being forced to go and take care of someone not matter how much we love them, giving up on dreams of a better life, etc.
But if I look at my situation honestly, the truth is that I can only be grateful. Some people would not understand that I could be in a state of gratitude when my mother is in hospital.
Of course I am sad and I wish we could turn the hands of time back and have my mother back the way she was. I am still under shock and feeling the pain of that very much so.
Then I stop and I become real with myself. First of all, this is not the worst I have been through in this life and other incarnations I have had on this planet and others. I have been chased, tortured, left to starve in a prison, burnt to death, hanged, murdered in many ways, drowned, quartered by horses, buried alive, and killed in many battles among many other atrocities… So my current situation seems pretty harmless really in comparison.
I have to be honest with myself. I did not have specific plans for this winter and now my life script has shown itself to me. I was supposed to be here to look after my mum. It was her path to get in the state she is and there was a soul contract between her and us, my father, my sister, myself and all the other family members and friends affected by this situation. She has her own lessons to learn and we all have something to learn through her situation because what happened to her has triggered certain things inside each of us that we also need to work on.
It sounds harsh at the beginning, thinking that we would do that to each other and to oneself in order to learn something. I believe that is why we come here though, to learn so we can grow and evolve.
In fact I woke up today with a revelation.I had this vision that when we will all have finally understood that our ego is an error and we will decide to live only in love, then all this illusion of physicality will dissolve and we’ll be free – no longer trapped in a reality that the ego created trying to make us believe that we can live a great life outside of creation, away from the creator. What the ego doesn’t want us to remember is that the creator never left us because we ARE the Creator too.
So despite appearances, things are good. Right now even if it doesn’t seem so on the surface. It came to me clearly when I had to coach my mother that day...
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