I changed my life again....
I was in my 8th year in Vancouver, Canada when I finally made the decision to take back the reins of my life and change direction. I quit my job as a teacher, gave my notice to leave my apartment, bought an electrical car and traveled to a small island called Salt Spring, one of the Gulf islands of British Columbia.
I did all this without much of a plan for the future. I have done this a few times in my life.
Somehow jumping off a cliff blindfolded always ends up strengthening my faith. The Universe, God or whatever you want to call the life force that animates the Universes is always here to catch me. I've never crashed…A few months before that big decision, I had reached the point of no return, a moment when my cup was simply too full. I was exhausted of running from one place to another to teach people in various places of this huge city of Vancouver. I felt drained and stuck in an endless loop of the same kind of year running one after the other…
Something had to change…
The first thing I did was to start setting my alarm clock for 5 AM. That was quite tough at first. Not so much the waking up part but the staying awake mid-afternoon while still standing and teaching classes! It took me about three weeks maybe to get used to that new rhythm.
It was like a rebirth. At the time I had so many projects going on at the same time, including developing a chair fitness program for the elderly community, a self-development program for the children, a Qi gong program for women at the weekend.
When I started my day earlier, it changed everything.I was able to dedicate some time for self-care and to work on my projects, next to my daily job as a teacher. I would start with a meditation, move on to yoga or Qi gong or some kind of fitness for my body. Then I still had time to work on my projects before it was time to get ready for my official working day. These were very happy and productive days.
I had somehow never gelled with Vancouver city and its community. Apparently I am not the only one who felt this. It seems that Vancouver despite being a very beautiful city by the ocean and with mountain views, is not for everyone.
I was not happy and felt the need to belong to a warm and welcoming community. In the spring, I had explored around Vancouver island and to Salt Spring Island and this is where I received the best welcome and felt the most beautiful, peaceful and spiritual energy.
On Salt Spring, I quickly found a place to live and a job as a front desk agent of the Harbour House Hotel. My work shifts were unfortunately not compatible with keeping up my 5 AM routine, which was a shame.
For the past few weeks, my sleep has been erratic. I used to sleep like a log. Now, with the worry for my mum, the anxiety about my own future, the strong energies coming to the planet, I can never predict how my sleep will be.
Some nights are "normal", and others, I wake up anytime between 2 and 6 AM. I do not get mad when that happens. I put the light on and I either read, meditate or write. A lot of the inspirations for my healing work or for my school project come at that time of the early morning.
And it is also the time when I feel the repressed emotions coming up to the surface and wanting to express themselves not in the most glamorous way indeed...
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