What the hell are we doing to ourselves?!
Usually when something is not clear or I am looking for a solution or a way out, I will ask for help and Spirit will guide me and send me the answer either through messages in the outside world or within at a time when my guard is at the minimum…
I was woken up. The first thing I felt was the pressure in my chest and the pain in my heart. I am familiar with that feeling. Last time I had this kind of awful feeling was four years ago when my boyfriend broke up with me. The heartache came with a revelation that I was hoping would not come unfortunately…
This is what I feared…The lockdown is destroying our family, and destroying my mum and our relationship with her and maybe her chances of recovery.
After our first visit yesterday and not being able to shake the bad feeling that something was wrong, I was under shock and I couldn’t quite put my finger on it…
This morning, I got an answer… When she was in the hospital and we were able to see her regularly, things were evolving differently. Sure, mum had her days of despair, discouragement and crying and we cried together and I was there to lift her mood up. We had quality time together, lots of eye contact, giggles and growls. We had a deep communication in our own way and I felt closer to my mother than ever before. I saw in her eyes and in her smile how happy she was when I entered the room at the same time nearly every day except when it was my father’s or sister’s turn to visit.
Yesterday was a shock and now I figured out what is going on… I am not a neurologist; I am not a specialist in how the brain works. I did not have the time yet to do my own search on the subject of memory, but I can tell you one thing…This separation is going to result in us losing our mother.The powers that be whose only agenda is to control us and make sure they enslave us even further understand this. They know that they have to divide to conquer. Everyone should know this by now. It is as old as old can be! Because they knew it was written in the cosmos that the time for our next evolution was coming, that the energies on our planet were going to change , that the age of Aquarius – my birth sign , whose first mottoes are freedom and justice – was on the horizon, because they knew that we were moving towards the age of the love revolution and unity among us – our divine natural state…because of their fear of losing control over us, because of their fear of losing their grip over our energy and assets, they had to plan something to make sure they would win.
They designed the perfect plan and one of them was that they would separate us by fear and turn us against each other so that we would not disagree and rebel against the real enemy: not a virus, not some made-up paid terrorist or criminal attack, but them and their takeover of our very humanity.
Shame to those who have let themselves indoctrinate over the years, and let themselves led by fear. I hold you too responsible for what is happening to my mother. I hold you responsible for the destruction of my family…Because of your fear of a virus that is no more deadly if actually less deadly than a bad yearly winter flu, this is what is happening to our family.
My mother had a stroke and her brain functions were severely damaged. We know of the plasticity of the brain and we know of our capacity to regrow neurons and adapt to a new situation. Over the days that I went to see my mum at the hospital, I was able to see her progress. She was doing well and I strongly believe that if I had been able to be there for her mornings and evenings, and give her more exercises to do for speech and mobility, she would already be in a different place now.
Of course she also needed the help of professional physiotherapists and a speech therapist working with her diligently…and this took way too much time to come and delayed her recovery. That was already a great frustration. Now even bigger frustration is these visits restrictions.My mum and I had not seen each other for nearly a month. This was a rupture of physical and visual contact. Who knows how her brain is re-constructing itself? What if the lack of physical and visual stimulus is actually affecting her memory? What if she slowly stops recognising us? Well maybe she recognised my dad as at least I saw that she was looking at him. However she did not look at me once. We did not have once eye contact. First because she was busy with her food and her gifts, but also maybe because I was in an angle of her vision where she could not access my body? I am trying to give excuses here to why we could not connect.
All I knew when I woke before 5 AM today was that this forced separation is making the situation worse. The restriction of days and time to visit her, wearing a mask, being separated by a huge table…all these are elements of distancing us not only physically but emotionally. I truly believe that we are all connected energetically.
Science has proven that a cell that becomes isolated from the others starts to wither and eventually dies. As above so below, if a human becomes isolated from other humans without their own volition – not as hermits who could survive a long time by keeping a strong connection with Spiritual energies – that this human will also wither and eventually die. Right now I am so mad. I started a Facebook post by: “To all of you who are still under the spell and not waking up to the globalist dictatorship we are under, I HATE you and this is why...”and then I was going to share this journal entry. However this is not a post addressed to my friends who mostly are awake or at least aware that something is not quite right…
This is something I would like the WHOLE world to hear! And yet here I am feeling powerless and speechless, confiding my rage, fears and crying to a virtual journal…
Now I understand why some people play the ostrich and prefer to keep their heads in the sand. This was my original plan. This Summer I wanted to stay in my cosy little wooden cabin in the Alps, working online developing my school for the children of the new generations, while enjoying the peace and nature around me, and doing a few hikes in the mountain. My goal was to let the world unfold and focus on what I wanted to create in the new world…
This was before my own family was affected. When that happens to you, unless you are submissive and giving up, you have to fight one way or another. So now how do I fight for my mother before it is too late? I have been doing energetic work on her at a distance, and getting help from a few healers too. But this doesn’t replace human touch and human connection – the essential juice and fuel for speedy recovery.
I am not sure my mum understood what happened. What is sure is that she had had enough to be in hospital. Did she understand though, when they took her away from the hospital, that she was going to a rehab center and not home? It is so hard to tell.
I am calling the rehab center today at the first hour of opening to make an appointment with her doctor. Mind you, he does have an auspicious name. His name is Doctor Coué. There is a famous method developed by Dr. Emile Coué where each day you program your subconscious by saying “Every day in every way I am getting better and better.” I would like to believe that this is auspicious.
At this point I should be applying what many spiritual teachers recommend: Looking pass the reality in front of my eyes as this is only a product and reflection of past thoughts and feelings and envision what I would like to see next by creating future scenes in my life with new thoughts and feelings. This requires a certain mastery I am not sure I have grasped at 100% yet unfortunately…
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