Day 18 of this lockdown.
If I want to come out and take some fresh air in the neighborhood, it's just around the corner. I can go to the canal where my mum used to go...
However, I am supposed to carry a paper saying that I authorised myself to go out and take some fresh air!
Under the pretense of preventing the spread of a virus, the authorities are taking our freedom of living the way we want away. They are also taking another opportunity to make money by collecting fines from whoever does not carry that paper.
I have decided I will NOT carry such stupidity on me. If I am told off by a policeman, I will also refuse to pay the fine. And if they arrest me, so be it! I have never spent a night in prison and that could be an adventure in itself, not that I welcome it, but I am prepared to be that stubborn and rebellious may that day come.
Each morning my father asks me – not that he really cares, but out of habit – Good morning, how are you? I have never liked these societal habits we have to ask each other how we are when we don’t really mean to find out for real. How many times have we replied I am fine when we were not? We’ve all done it and for some of us, it is also such a habit that the words have lost their meaning.
So if my father was really interested, if I was giving the right answer, it would sound a little like this:
Well, I did not sleep well, I woke in the middle of the might again. Mentally I am going round in circle trying to figure out what to do regarding the future. Emotionally I am boiling inside and I feel like the most precious value in my life – my freedom – is being stripped of me. Physically, my body is starting to give up under the excess stress. And there is spiritually…
That is the only thing that is working for me at the moment. My spirit is keeping me going for my mum and for the service I provide to the world with my healing abilities and my alternative school of children. All this means I am contributing in creating a new and better world…
What keeps me going, what gives me the fuel is my daily practice of meditation and spiritual healing. It is my daily buoy and what keeps me afloat at the moment. I am so grateful that over all these years the invisible realms have been here to support me and even save my life a few times. Thank you.
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