I am told by my friend Diane that I should apply all the good things I help people with to myself.
I am very good at helping people cheer up and get back on the horse. I am a passionate woman. I come from my heart and thus I feel things very deeply. This means I am an energetic yo-yo. I can go super high, feel and express a joy that is very contagious. I can also flip the other side, all the way down and find myself in isolation going through dark journeys of the soul. Those are not fun but I have come to appreciate them as a walk in a very dark tunnel, more or less long depending on the situation. When it happens, it feels that it will be forever and that I will never get out of it. Thanks to my Spirit and the help of my invisible helpers of the Light, I have always been guided out of the tunnel, and every time I have discovered a new depth in me and new strengths.
I believe we all have soul contracts with each other. We must have gathered before our incarnation and agreed on which role we were going to play and how we were going to interact with each other…When going through a separation with someone, it can be very painful. However after quite a few breakups I can say that I am grateful for all these experiences. This is my time to pull my hats off to my ex boyfriends…
My ex-boyfriends include a French patriot, a German globetrotter, a dogmatic Scotsman, an Australian Don Juan, an American psychopath, a paranoid Englishman, a narcissist Iranian, a bisexual Spaniard and a French charmer. Each one has reflected back to me something in my inner world that I needed to look at and triggered things that I didn’t know I had inside. I have learned a great deal about myself and have learned to become more resilient and more self-loving as a result so thank you to all of you, men that have crossed my path and played the role of accompanying my journey of self-discovery in this life.
At an intellectual level, I also get that the evil people in this world, the ones who own the financial systems, and from the top down dictate their rules to the world, even they are in agreement with us.At a higher level of understanding, they are playing the role of triggering us and helping us to awaken.
Even if it is a little reluctantly, I have to pull my hats off to those souls who have chosen the role of the villains in order to trigger all his rage inside us that will be the fuel to our awakening.
At an intellectual level, I also get that this reality is an illusion and that there is so much more to this Universe that my human mind doesn’t allow me to see and grasp. I get all that, and there is a part of me that indeed can appreciate what we are going through and understand that all this is happening as part of the shift in consciousness.
Yet, even if all this makes sense, I guess I would not have come down here to experience all this joy, all this pain if it wasn’t to feel it and grow from it. It’s just that when you are sitting at home, meditating with a group of friends online and nothing reaches you, it’s easier than when you are confronted with direct experience of struggle.
My mother’s accident is one of those direct challenges that hits you in the face. I have the feeling that we are nowhere nearly finished with the challenges of this material world. We have the task to shake the old world and transform it into a New Earth and this doesn’t go without collateral.
I feel very protective of my loved ones and friends and always do my best to help out. Now I am forced to put my helping hands down and do nothing because they have decided that coming to see my mother is dangerous.
I agree: it is dangerous for our hearts! We are lucky to have develop a friendship with the psychologist on site, Catherine. She absolutely adores my mum, like most people do! She also comes from the heart and is appalled by the situation and ready to help us out. She has been calling us on her mobile every day since the restrictions and hold the phone by my mother’s ears so we can talk to her.
I reassure my mother every time that they cannot separate us. They can forbid us from seeing each other physically but they can’t take something from us: we have our blood ties and we have our heart ties.
Those invisible strings between us travel through time and space and no lockdown of any way shape or form will ever destroy that.
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