It is 4 in the morning. When my Spirit wants to talk, this is one of the times we talk.
Since finding out that we are forbidden to see mum at the hospital, a fire has lit up inside my guts and my heart. It feels like an internal lioness has woken up inside and it is not alien. It was in me all along. My mum is my mum and I am her daughter yet it feels like now I am her mum and she is my daughter. I feel like she has protected me and taken care of me all these years and now it’s my turn. I feel like the lioness and I can’t protect my cub, my mum. I literally feel the animal in me, physically, I feel my body wants to prepare for action, in the position of a lion ready to attack, teeth out. Even my eyes feel different like if a fire is coming out of them like a laser beam.
I am a peaceful person and I am all for peace on Earth. I also believe that peace goes hand in hand with freedom. They have already taken away the freedom to see my mother, now they are taking away the freedom to see my family with a new lockdown…
As I write this, I am cold in my room and I happen to wrap myself up with this shawl, the one I bought when I lived in Scotland. I look at the tartan and I smile.
There are no coincidences in life. I look at the colours and I am reminded of Braveheart. I get a rush again in my blood thinking of the movie and Mel Gibson shouting his last word “FREEDOM!!!” Out of all the past lives that I have remembered, one of them was that of a roman soldier at the service of the authorities at the time. I don’t wish to explore much of that and don’t want to know more about the type of person I was then, working for the police state, oppressing people. We’ve all played different roles through our incarnations. We explore our dark side as well as our good sides. I know I have worked for the dark side before but now I have made a choice and I am working for the light. I did not come in this incarnation for my own selfish purpose, I did not come here this time around to exploit people, cause them harm or destroy the environment and its inhabitants.
I came here to be part of the revolution. Maybe I won’t decapitate the president this time around but I will find many ways to stand up. I envy the first French Revolution, and I really hope I was part of that as I am proud of what we did as a people to rebel against oppression and tyranny. However I regret that we are not more united this time.
Where is a second revolution when you need it?This is the second lockdown in France this year. I was in British Columbia when the first one happened in the spring and it did not affect my life much at all. This will be a first for me.
We all have values in life. Love, fun, safety, adventure…This is an exercise I give my coaching clients. After they have found and listed their values, they put them in order of priorities and make decisions from there. I have done this exercise myself over different periods in my life and the classification varies slightly however the one value that is never touched is the one at the top of my list: FREEDOM!
If I do not have freedom, there is not much I can do. Or is there?
In Man’s Search for Meaning, author Viktor Frankl tells us about how in the middle of a concentration camp, he was able to remain free in his mind and survive the worst conditions. Whatever the outside circumstances, this is one thing we are supposed to retain: our freedom of thought, our imagination…The trick however is that I don’t think we are free in our head either. If we were really that free in our head, we would have already all woken up to the fact that there is a tyranny upon us.
Even just a hundred years ago, these lockdowns would not have happened. Now information travel fast. While we can all connect and make new friends from all around the world, this circulation of information is a double edge sword. The phone, the television and the internet have allowed the world authorities to close their grip on us even more tightly. They are able to organise their agenda and spread the word faster than ever before.
On the bright side, having the web also created the opportunity for humanity to connect at a much grander scale. Thanks to this, I am now able to share this and I am able to find like-minded people online and thus feel less isolated.
I desire a second revolution. Not one with a guillotine. Not one with blood and lots of casualties. A revolution of the mind. A revolution of the heart.
My prayers are simple. Help humanity wake up to the truth of who they really are. Powerful Spiritual Light beings having a human experience.
I do not consent to this oppression, this lockdown. Sorry government, you did not convince me nor did you make me fear this so called pandemic. I believe in my own body’s ability to heal should I ever catch this virus –which may or may not be an actual virus and which may or may not have been created and released intentionally.
All that is going now around me just doesn’t add up and since the very beginning I joined my brothers and sisters of the Light and started the inner revolution. That of freeing my mind from the indoctrination, opening my heart to others, and trusting in my True Self, this higher spiritual aspect of myself.
It is 4:30 AM and this is who is with me, my spirit, my soul, my true Self, always here with me, on this journey on Earth. A journey that is turning out to be way more tumultuous than I bargained for…
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